Saturday, December 17, 2016

Two Words

Thrilled. And Terrified. Why keep writing? 😅

Well, here we go again...Baby #3 arrives in May! Obviously, I'm thrilled! It's amazing that after trying to start a family for over 5 years with no success, we'll now have 3 kids 3 and under. No, amazing is an understatement. It blows my mind! God is seriously making up for lost time.

And I'm terrified, because you can't go through 3 miscarriages without becoming paranoid on some level. And being a mom will do that you, too. I just want this baby to be healthy and safe! But I also know how much work kids are. Going from 1 to 2 kids has been a big adjustment for me, and the idea of 3 is just a little bit scary. Okay, I'm terrified! (But you already knew that.) Who knows though, maybe I'll really find my groove?

"Thrilled but terrified" actually seems to be the recurring theme if you go back and read my other pregnancy posts (here and here). The thing is: Infertility is really, really hard. (Much love to all my sisters in infertility out there: it hurts, and it's not fair--I totally know.) Pregnancy is hard, too. And being a mom is hard--probably the hardest thing I've ever done. But it's also brought me so much happiness. I love what this blogger once said on her Instagram, that "hard" isn't the same thing as "bad." Just because life is hard doesn't mean you have to be unhappy. Life can be really hard and really good at the same time. 

Which is basically my life as a mom with young kids right now--really hard but really good. Really, really good...And I'm betting it's going to be even better with 3!


  1. This makes me cry happy tears for you! My first three were really close together. Three kids three and under too! That transition from 2-3 kids was the hardest and it really took a lot out of me. I hope and pray this transition for you is easier and smoother. I love that you talked about hard not equalling bad. Your family is beautiful and you are such an amazing mother (one I admire and think I should be more like). Congratulations again to you and your sweet growing family! We wish you nothing but the best :)

  2. I love the last picture with Lydia walking away crying. Classic sibling pic!

  3. That's amazing Jennifer! I'm so very happy for you. What a wonderful gift to be a mom. I have never struggled with infertility, but I've had my own battles and as we all know they make us stronger. More than that though, suffering gives us the knowledge to empathize with others and help them when they suffer as we do. That too is a gift, I think.

  4. And those pictures are beautiful! What a lovely family you have. And yes, you are super brave. :) When I had my 3rd my oldest was 4 1/2 and I remember it being hard. But 3 kids 3 and under sounds challenging!! It will be great. I love what you said about hard not meaning bad. SO SO very true.