Sunday, February 13, 2011

When things don't exactly work out...

Sorry, I usually write for you, but right now I just have to say what's on my mind. I should be 16 weeks pregnant, but I'm not.

The past few weeks have been some of the hardest I've ever had, but I've come away from it feeling thankful for what I've just experienced. I realized that this is one of the best things about my life, not necessarily the hard things I've been through (and that all of us go through in life), but that it's made me stronger, more trusting and more compassionate.

I’m thankful that the Lord let me be the little girl who was left out all through school, so that I would know how you feel when you’re lonely.

I’m thankful that the Lord let my family move when I finally found a friend, so that I would know how you feel when you have to start all over again.

I’m thankful that the Lord let my senior prom date dump me for a party, so that I would know how you feel when things don’t work out like you’d hoped.

I’m thankful that the Lord let me lose my first love, so that I would know how you feel when your heart is broken.

I’m thankful that the Lord let me lose my first real job, so that I would know how you feel when life has given you the short end of the stick.

I’m thankful that the Lord let me lose my first baby after almost three years of waiting, so that I would know how you feel when you just need to grieve for a while.

And last, I'm thankful that the Lord has blessed with me with such a loving husband, family and friends, and for all of the joy that you've brought to my life. It's been a great support to me. I love you all!

(And thank you for indulging me this one time - I don't mean to complain or ask for sympathy, just to offer some new perspective that life's blessed me with...)

- Jenny

7 comments:

  1. Jenny you are wonderful. I love you so much. You are always an amazing example to me. Thank you so much for being my friend.

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  2. I cried when I read this. I, too, lost an infant early in pregnancy many years ago and remember to this day how it felt.

    I do know you are loved and cherished by many, many people. Thank you for sharing this. You are a beautiful person inside and out.

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  3. Wow, Jenny. I am so sorry for your loss. But I'm also extremely amazed by your grace and strength. You will make a fantastic mother one day.

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  4. I am so sorry Jenny! I cried thinking of the struggle this must be for you. I remember you telling us how much you were looking forward to being a wife and mother. You are going to be the very best mother there ever was too. Know that we are thinking of you and that we love you!!

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  5. I am sorry to hear that :( It is amazing how we can be blessed even in our toughest trials. I will keep you and Ben in my prayers and we will have to talk soon. Love you!

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  6. Thanks everyone for commenting! It's usually kind of hard for me to say what I'm feeling, so I appreciate your kind words and prayers. We love you! We figure this was just a practice run, and hope to have happier news to share in the near future. :) It would definitely improve the content of this blog!!! I keep running out of things to write about...

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  7. This I know - you are a woman of strength and courage. You have found the joy in the hardest of stretching. Thank you for sharing your honest words and allowing us all to hurt along with you. You are Loved.

    -Emily Ann

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